When was the last time you were nervous?
I can count the times I’ve been truly nervous in my life using only my ten fingers.
- My wedding day.
- when I arrived at bootcamp.
- the birth of my kids–especially my daughter.
- The day I proposed to my wife, I thought she’s say no. The reason I thought that had a lot to do with my self-esteem at the time.
- The last time I talked to my dad on the phone, we haven’t talked since.
- When I met my wife’s parents.
- The two times my son has had surgery.
- Losing our house and having to look for a new place to live.
- Learning to write better, this is an ongoing thing.
- Meeting an agent and her family, that I’d only known through Twitter.
The last one was the most recent.
I’d followed this agent for a while on Twitter and saw that she was coming through Las Vegas with her son and husband. It may seem odd to her, but I was extremely nervous.
I only had one intention, to talk about my writing and ask her a few questions, which I got to do.
I’d sought her out to meet her, have lunch, talk about my writing and ask a few questions. I brought my kids as well, to make her feel more at ease.
She asked about my writing, what I was working on and I gave her my best elevator pitch.
She wanted to see it when it was ready, it’s in the third draft right now. I still want to work on it and make it better. It feels good, but it’s still not where I’m comfortable with her seeing it.
It was a learning experience for me and when I have a final draft ready she’ll be the first person I send it to.
Brian B. Baker is an unpublished writer of Science Fiction/Fantasy and Horror. He’s been writing short stories since high school, and is certain it’s one of the few things that keeps him sane. Brian blogs at The Bleeding Inkwell.