At your deepest level, what do you most want to know in your lifetime?
My senior year in high school I took a creative writing class. It was the first time I sat down and wrote something in a class setting and I loved it, but after graduation my writing was infrequent, sloppy and didn’t have much effort behind it.
Now that it’s been nearly twenty years since I graduated high school and I was rummaging through some of my old writing from then as well as a novel I wrote a few years ago, I wondered where I’d be if hadn’t stopped writing regularly.
I know I’d have at least a book published, maybe two. I don’t like to look back at the past because the present is much more important. I have my kids, wife and I’m writing now more than I ever had then.
I keep a schedule to my writing, and usually don’t break it, but there are the moments when I’m struggling with my writing and i think about those times in high school and how freely the words flowed from my hands, then I remember how I wrote the first 36,000 words of my current project in a ten days, yes ten.
It’s the moments like that I think about my writing differently and consider why I write my characters, why certain story ideas grab my attention and others fall away.
I’ve come to one conclusion about my writing in the last few years, I write because I feel it’s the only thing I’m really good at.
I played ice hockey in high school, but I wasn’t great at it. I was discharged a week into Marine boot camp, wasn’t good at that.
I like to think about where I’d be, what stories I would have written and whether I’d be the same person I am now, I hope so. I really like the person I am now, especially this writing stuff, it rocks!
Brian B. Baker is an unpublished writer of Science Fiction/Fantasy and Horror. He’s been writing short stories since high school, and is certain it’s one of the few things that keeps him sane. Brian blogs at The Bleeding Inkwell.